Hey friends,
hope you had a great weekend. There’s just so much I want to write that you guys will surely love to read (fingers crossed), like one topic after another and another just kept coming up. I had to be hands-on and write them down before I forget them.
If you have been reading the articles on my blog, you will find there’s so much connected to spirituality and nature. During last week this topic came up, and then over the weekend it just kept coming up the whole time, now you can see right… this topic is freshly baked and only you can tell me over time if it will be evergreen or expired.
You know, I do apologise, some of the articles you’ve read of mine, sometimes pain resurfaces, or maybe the recollection of it. I mean I seriously didn’t realise what to call or make of some phases in my life, and I’m sure you had those moments too, right? When I wrote the article emotional bankruptcy I had only just realised that even a positive person can feel emotionally bankrupt, in 2019 and 2020, I had no idea that I was recuperating from emotional bankruptcy.
Did it take Coronavirus and all the things that happened in your life recently that made you realise that you are emotionally bankrupt? Look, we’ve all been there, and sometimes there’s been so much pain that you just stop feeling it, tears are even tired of coming out. You know for some reason I’ve always linked emotional bankruptcy with negative actions, negative people never with being positive. Being positive is one thing but when one feels tired of it all, and still has to continue on the path it’s hard to recognise how much you really could be fed up with, i.e., yes, competing, games, bulls**t, system, survival, etc. you know everyone needs a break from this especially if it’s become the A-game. It’s alright to play the A-game, but if you don’t have strong whys, you get beaten around like the wind battering a fragile tree. – T. Dench Patel, 22 February 2021, 15:38
Pain, we just don’t see the beauty of pain. I mean least of all do we really want to live in continuous pain? I really wouldn’t like to live in continuous pain whether it’s emotional scars or physical scars all the time, and I guess here is where one finds themselves in emotional bankruptcy, the moment it takes a tall, this moment that comes when the process dies or ends. For me, it felt so continuous that the minute there was a swerve or curveball (never was like this before), I’d be ouch, ouch, ouch, ouch! Oh! Boy! The complaints and rants go on (I have no idea where I picked this habit up from), but this weekend, I started saying, “Bring it on if it does have to be part of my destiny,” obviously I don’t want to call the whole boulder or avalanche… we don’t want law of attraction to work like that, now do we? However, in a long while did it finally take for me to utter those words to the universe, I’m ready with my bows, arrows, axe, guns, machete, love, iron boots, warrior armour, ready…
So, why now and not two years ago? We all are on our own journey, busy incubating, busy processing, busy making sense of the whole thing, most of us right now since March 2020 are really resting and some of you out there don’t even know it, you’ve been burnt out in ways unimaginable and unrecognisable. Forced rest, has been served. Nice sentence, by the way… 😉 You know for a long time I felt no pain, tears wouldn’t even roll out of my eyes, I became the numbed weapon that my own weapons and armour weren’t even necessary anymore. It felt like being dead when you can’t feel anything, not even your own emotions. So, when I look at the perspective of a prostitute, I can absolutely understand that some people have been in such immense trauma that they stop feeling and continue as living dead. There are moments when everyone wishes to leave this, wish to feel feeling, anything even pain where necessary.
See we’ve been wrong about pain and we’ve become so afraid of it from our own fears, our own experiences, others and what happened to them, their vibration affects our energy and so fear is something that can serve, paralyse and be dangerous for us. We really do have it all wrong when it comes to pain, the hurt is what we have attached our thoughts and decisions to. What if that isn’t the case at all?
Okay, imagine this, imagine you’re a flower (I know you’re one already, but you might find this hard to believe, hence why I am asking you to imagine). Yes, even if you’re a young lad or a man, just try this exercise please, for exercise sake and for the aha moment that you are about to witness. First read all of the sentences in the exercise then close your eyes and practise now that you know what you would need to imagine.
1) Think of the most beautiful flower you have ever seen in your life or that you love so much.
2) Imagine your spirit is in the core of the flower and your body the bud.
3) What you’re imagining is that you are deep, this pure essence in this casing, growing every single day. Visualise the seed of your soul within this growing flower.
4) Now imagine that for you to grow, you’d require light to enter, you’d require oxygen, you’d require water, you’d require several other factors to help your growth and you’d require pain.
Okay, got it? Yes, you read right, the ending of point 4, “…you’d require pain”.
5) Now, comes all seasons and you’re there, you’re losing all your leaves, you can’t try and retain them, you have to let nature take its course, let go of your leaves falling in autumn, your roots are hanging in there during the cold winter months, you’re so numb and cold that you feel nothing and you let nature take its course, spring comes, you are surprised to find your roots growing deeper and stronger, leaves shooting out, no more numb feelings and there you are your soul has awakened.
6) You are growing in this bud, it’s getting pretty squashed and you push with all your might, “crack,” and you scream “Ouch!” loud, it was extremely painful to crack open, and you haven’t forced the bud to crack, there just wasn’t no space to grow, you thought you damaged a part of you, but it’s okay it’s just hurting and you continue on your path until another “crack,” then you feel pain again (plants don’t speak, complain or moan), but we sure do. Then, “Ahhh!” one final push, you thought you damaged a few petals, but they’re alright.
Okay, now try visualising the six points above. I will wait for you.
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Ready to discuss?
What have you picked up?
- Light needs to enter through the cracks?
- There have to be cracks for light to enter.
- To have cracks you feel pain.
- You recover from the pain.
- You grow.
And finally, pain makes every living thing on our plant grow.
So now this last point, please read it then visualise it.
7) You come out of the bud, you’re slowly awakening, you’ve been sleeping, resting, growing, healing from the pain, cracks, and areas that feel sore (mentally, physically, spiritually, and emotionally) after pushing out of the bud but now you’re fully healed, and so, you open your eyes and look around, “Wow! To your surprise, you’re flourishing in the sun, open to the universe, your scars, pain, sores turned into numerous colours as you watch your petals dance with the breeze.” T. Dench Patel, 22 February 2020, 16: 34
The Moral of the story, pain makes you grow. Unnecessary pain forces abnormal growth. – T. Dench Patel, 22 February 2021, 16:39
Yours sincerely,
T. Dench Patel
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